High 'wanted affection'

Today, for the very first time, I am actually aching for you. I didn’t think it could actually happen – a physical ache that is. If I had to describe it, I would liken it to a void of some sort which is spreading slowly inside me. Depressing, relentless, dark.

I know if I talk to you about it, it will seem silly. I am logical just as you are. I know I will see you sooner than later. But that seems immaterial right now. All I know right now is the way I feel: lost. I’ve said you are the anchor in my life. It's been so long since I saw you, I feel like I am beginning to drift. I’ve said you are the oasis in my desert. Without you, the Sun seems harsher. Even what I love doing normally seems futile. Purposeless. I feel more alive when you are around. Right now, I exist. But that’s pretty much it.

God, I sound pathetic! Could I be more lovesick, I wonder :-) And in my FIRO - B analysis, I was low on 'wanted affection'. :-))