Losing a part of me...

If I were still pregnant, I would've been very close to my delivery date. 7th June was in fact one of the due dates forecast by the Doctor...as was 11th and 14th June.
Some days I just cannot move on. I am literally stuck. I can feel it. I can feel a constant dagger in my heart, digging deeper every moment. It hurts just too much and I dont know what to do. I dont know how to move on, how to look up. I feel like with each step I take forward, I take at least 2 backward. It's like quicksand....or maybe a black hole in the ground. And it pulls me. And I know I can hold my ground but it is so much easier to just fall and let go.